'TO REMEMBER TO RETURN'
A quest into the felt but not spoken about aftermath of the Holocaust
This documentary/film is made as part of a spiritual memoir. Carola is harvesting her life experience. The documentary found its final form with editing help from many friends, especially Rabbi Pam Frydman and Rabbi Goldie Milgram.
This documentary is a tribute to the Spirit of Jewish Renewal. It conveys the transformative power of "doing Teshuvah out of Love" and the power of spiritual regeneration.
It is a piece of art. Carola weaves prayerful music and images of her transformative art making into her life story. Sharing her process of self transformation. She turns her story into a prayer flow. Prayer turns her story into a spiritual journey Home, through the dark.
A journey of consolation and redemption. Finding wholeness in brokenness. Returning to the light of the soul, again and again. Opening the gates of the Heart. A Home coming.
The documentary invites intimacy. To connect with one's own story. To reflect, feel, share,
re-frame similar life experiences, related to "aftermath's" of tragedies of dehumanization, imprisonments, displacements and betrayals.
It is all about purification ('karmic cleansing") and transmutation (bringing in the light), of/in dark emotions and fixed thought pattern/self images. Bringing art and soul into difficult life experiences. Daring to feel pain. Releasing "holding" and "hiding". Letting the love, light, joy and beauty flow and grow. Allowing consolation and redemption to renew life. Give soul strength.
It is a beautiful hopeful "statement", that we can SHIFT out of fear-based identifying with
the Holocaust and "dangers", develop courage and compassion. We can soften our fate,
stop the drama and return to commit ourselves to the Source of Goodness.
It is about how a personal spiritual practice can empower one's soul journey.
To remember to return.
Judaism as a path of transformation
centering in the light
return to the root of the soul
FACING AND BLESSING
return to mother ground
retrieving the essence of love
RETURN TO THE LIGHT OF THE SOUL
return to the source of life
home in the light
in gratitude and joy
the divine inheritance retrieved
The film weaves 3 threads:
1. The process of self transformation by doing Teshuvah out of Love
Returning to the root of the soul
CENTERING and PURIFYING
in the Light
in Great Compassion
in the Spirit
the God spark
a selfless space
a seeing from the perspective of the Light that sees through the eyes and heart
SEPARATING and ILLUMINATING
deconstructing the story
returning to Source
remembering: 'The Soul is pure'
releasing pain and strife
de-taching from drama
a fearless space
a facing and blessing and discerning what is Rooted in Basic Goodness
THE SWEETENING and UNIFYING
finding wholeness in brokennes
feeling through all the manifestations
of the One
offering life experiences up
a God centered space
a calling on the waters of healing
2 Facing and blessing the Presence of the Absent. Dealing with unfinished mourning.
Retrieving Love. Honoring ancestors. Purifying contaminations and confusions.
Return to Source.
3 Facing the void left behind. Facing the neatly restored houses. A facade. The past is vanished, my family story "non-existing". The German way of remembering the nazi period and their Jewish fellow citizens did not include my family story.
I needed to to turn within: expressing being a Jew from the inside out.
Cutting through projections, identifications and old patterns.
The etchings express my transformative process of bringing color and life back to my ancestors. Blessing Life and aliveness. Restoring the capacity to feel and heal.
If you like to know more or watch the whole documentary , please contact me.
Practical details of the documentary To Remember To Return
There are two dvd versions of approximately 1 hour:
• Jewish Renewal style music
• Traditional Jewish music, male voices only
You can find the musiclist in the booklet by downloading the pdf here (1.7 mb)
The music woven into the film, may not be used without the images and the story. The music expresses the process of Teshuvah, the flow of prayer. The list in the booklet is meant to be used as reference.
In my "Art Book" (ISBN 978-908-24-681-44, September 2014) all the drawings and etching used in the documentary and in-depth interviews are bundled and printed.
To have a look, click here